worthy is the lamb

I heard an amazing thing on KLOVE today...She said that across the country we all listen to and sing to these songs at the same time as though we were one giant choir. But the cool part is...there is only one person who can hear it. thats our father. How amazing that all together as one church we come and worship our creator. This reminds me of in revelation when we are told that he sees in heaven thousands and thousands of angels singing worthy is the lamb. what an awesome thing to picture. What a noise that scene must make with thousands of voices crying out praise to God..

Since my grandma died, my mind has been a lot on what heaven must be like. What was her immediate reaction when she arrived at the gates???? To have all those mysteries and questions answered to know that God knew our every emotion and he was there through everything in ourlives on earth. To fellowship with martyrs and people from the bible. to be in his presence at his feet constantly worshipping What is this place we all hear of going to be like. Wow...everyday my eyes are opened to so many things that make me love my god even more...

I am in love with this man...

TPing Round 1,234,874,273,658,736:)

Last night was awesome!!!! A night with my buddies that I barely get to see. I missed them! IT began with baking an amazing funfetti cake and then off to tp( i know we are supposed to be grown up college kids but shhhh) ! after dressing in our capes and all black... yes we go all out. ask the adamos! I am glad God has given me friends like Emma and Whit...I cant wait for summer!!!...we will do some tp damage :)

Christmas time is here!

Boy do i love Christmas! It began with Peter coming over to give me one of my gifts. It was the movie Wall-E. Our first kind of date back when we were in the awkward talking stage:) He is cute :) Then we went to my grandmas house for the usual Christmas eve party. Even though every year is the same food and people etc. I never get tired of it. I appreciated my time with my grandmother so much. After losing my other grandma I see how priceless each moment is. The night ended I changed into the Christmas eve pajamas and headed off to finish gifts and wait for Santa to come. I woke up to maddi telling me santa was here. I loved every single gift but my favorite part is alwasy the IHOP breakfast. This year we had a new addition. OUR ROBES AND PAJAMAS! Lets just say every set of eyes in ihop was on us. I love how spontaneous my famly is. Overall I enjoyed this Christmas so much. MY family jus had fun and enjoyed eachother. I am reallly not looking forward to heading back to school without them...

NO place like home

rainy days...being home...Footie pajamas...excitement for christmas... brothers and sisters=this night.

I got into my footie pajamas and we began to interpretive dance to christmas music. I miss so much being with the family so often. There is nothing like the excitement and love within this house:) ...but I know God has plans for me living at PLNU but in the meantime I am enjoying being home:)

Ugly Christmas Sweater party!

Its Christmas time!!!Lets break out those ugly sweaters

wild animal park

Pete took me to the wild animal park today. him and his crazy loving for animals... it makes me smile to see someone who loves and appreciates God's creation so much. HE loves them so much he said we had to dress up snazzy...guess we have to dress up in the presence of these animals:) AFter we were freexing our butts offf..well i was (Crazy alaskian boy) we got hot chocolate and headed to the tram tour that went into the "Heart of Africa" I loved seeing the tram ride at night...the animals look so different and it feels like you are actually in an African plain. I dream about one day actually visiting these places that are nothing like here. Lately I am really thinking about everything as something God took so much time to plan out and to put so much creativity into. The mystery in each person and creature that I dont see but one day I will is something that just awes me. God blessed us with such a beautiful place to live. I wonder what heaven will be like...:)

Grandma

There’s a peace I’ve come to know...

Though my heart and flesh may fail

There’s an anchor for my soul

I can say, “it is well”

Jesus has overcome

And the grave is overwhelmed

The victory is won

He is risen from the dead

I will rise when He calls my name

No more sorrow, no more pain

I will rise on eagles wings

Before my God, fall on my knees

And riseI will rise

There’s a day that’s drawing near

When this darkness breaks to light

And the shadows disappear

And my faith shall be my eyes

And I hear the voice of many angels sing, “worthy is the Lamb”

And I hear the cry of every longing heart, “worthy is the Lamb

Some would say Heather Bliss' journey ended this morning at 7:10. I would say her journey just began. This morning at 7:10 she was finally free from all of the pain and sickness she was battling...she was with Jesus...she had defeated the cancer.


Heather and I were discussing what her first few hours there must have been like. To here the voices of all those angels singing worthy is the lamb. To not only feel Jesus' presence but to be there with him...that is something we all anticipate, and here she was experiencing it.

In the song above, I think it captures maybe what heaven will be like. THis is probably smething like what she was experienceing. When it states I will rise when he callls my name.. to think he specifically called her by name. ANd at that point she was perfect again.

That part that hit me the most is when it ends with all the angels were singing worhty is the lamb. What an amazing experience.

I will miss my grandma but I am so excited for where she is now. SHe has been such a role model with her faith and life in general. When we were sharing memories of her, it was neat to see how many lives she has impacted. She has shown me I need to be more intentional with my faith and to love others with the love of Jesuss

I love you Grandma

In loving memory

Heather Bliss

October 1943-December 19, 2008

zoo day!!!

The group minus the losers who didnt want to come:/

me and Emily :)

Today was zoo day with the small group. what an awesome bunch of people this group has been. It was a cool semester learninf about all of these people. I loved getting closer to my roomate emily. THanks God for all of these people:)

I finally broke

Thanksgiving break...God showed me so much. I will admit that when I saw break coming, all I could think about was the break from everything. A chance for well, a break. Tuesday morning all plans were thrown out of wack. My mom needed to go up to my grandmas, she was getting worse. My dad came and picked me up and my weekend began.

Wednesday before we were going to leave, my mom contemplated going to see our grandma but decided against it. Knowing how selfless she was being by wanting to not interfere with the trip I asked if we could go.

When we arrived at her hospital room, seeing her there looking so weak it was hard to keep up my usual wall of "I am okay, I never cry". She looked tired and weak and like there was no hope. Immediately, my heart crumbled. As I watched my mom and her exchange whispers, smiles and tears, I couldn't help but look at my grandmas face. All I could think was each line in her face each mark what memory did each of those represent. Which lines were the ones from the smiles of her first love, or the sadness when her mom died, or the joy of seeing her daughters born. Wow how full had her life been. For some reason all I wanted to do was reach out and grab her hand but I was to afraid. I think my mom saw me hesitate and told me to go ahead. To think of all the fun times we had together and to watch her smiles and different emotions expressed on her face, it no longer mattered that she couldn't speak. Our time together ended and we went on to camp. When we were within ten miles, my mom got a call saying they found two tumors on her brain one of them five inches in length.

I was so confused. God what was going on. How could this all be happening so fast. The doctors predicted she has about a week. When all I was worrying about was my sports grades and how I was going to afford another year of school, she had one week of her life yet. Suddenly everything was put into perspective for me of what should matter to me. We quickly turned around and headed back to the hospital.

My cousins and I are not close and to see this instant response of the whole family going down to this hospital room once again just overwhelmed me. TO see that through her pain and suffering she had brought the rest of us together. She had reminded me of how important our families were. My mom was telling me she sees her as a Jesus figure. that through her suffering she fixed things.

The next day the doctors told her of her tumors. I was told her reaction was just disappointment. Another thing that she was having to suffer through. With each visit that I came to her, I just wanted to only be around her. to keep thinking that soon she was going to be with Jesus. She could count the days till she got to be with Jesus praising him once again perfect and flawless. What a scary yet amazing thing. I wanted to be close to that.

She is confused now. Cant speak as well so i try to find things I can connect with her to maybe a smile or a laugh or a picture. Yesterday I brought my crochet. She used to crochet a lot when she was younger. When I watched her try to show me a new stitch then get frustrated cause she couldn't remember , another part of me broke. Why was this faithful women having to go through such a hard time. To know that everything in life could change so fast.

I was glad we had something in common. I loved feeling her watch me as I worked on my blanket. I wondered what her thoughts were. How she felt. As I told someone else of my major and school she nodded her head and smiled. She could understand me and for some reason that meant everything that she listened.

I look up to my grandma. Every story my mom has told me about her how she made her mistakes but was a strong women. How beautiful she was in every picture she took. All I can do is be amazed by her.

This weekend God re showed me the importance of my family that no matter how much i feel i am okay i am on my own he put them there for me. I need them. He showed me what it means to be faithful and courageous. He showed me what it means to be a strong women of God. HE showed me what this time here on earth means and how the end of a life can be and exciting thing. God also showed me that its okay to break. All weekend I sucked up my tears and my emotions but today I couldn't anymore. God got me to cry....and wow it kind of feels good:)